The Wallow of Sin
This post is slightly different from all others. This post is personal. When writing for HCMS, I will typically try to find some pattern in my life and see the imagery in it. I use that imagery, with a connection to Scripture, and make a post out of it. It is a parallel process to my life. This website does not typically intervene into the steady steps of my daily cycle. This post does. I feel comfortable enough knowing that many of you reading are people that I can call brothers and sisters in Christ and so I bring a bit of intercessory pray to your attention.
My best friend from elementary school got into drugs in high school. You can call him George. George recently overdosed on drugs, almost died from it and got arrested in the same weekend. George and I have not hung out since middle school, so while my connection to him is not the same as it used to be, I do know what he was like when we were little. George was literally the most caring person I knew. He had the impeccable ability to be fun and lighthearted when I was at my lowest. As a small kid, I had little arguments with all of my friends, but never did I argue with George. I can never think of a time that George and I were on bad terms. I can safely say that he was my best friend.
George was diagnosed with diabetes at a young age. He was in the hospital for a large part of the first grade because of his blood sugar being so irrational, and it was in that time that he almost died. Now while I could not comprehend the emotional and spiritual weight of something like that at such a young age, I know now that that was a great burden on George’s family.
We eventually went to different schools and went down different paths. George started playing baseball in middle school and became really good. I became an outcast and started listening to weird music whilst dyeing my hair weird colors. At the beginning of high school, George started smoking pot while I dripped into depression until Jesus saved me in 2008. By the end of high school, George was getting into heavier drugs and dropping out of high school while I acclaimed a calling for ministry and going to the largest Christian university in the world. And now two years later, I hear word that George was in the hospital for drug use and got arrested, while I was doing homework on the validity of Bible translations.
In Genesis 4, we read an account of brothers: Cain and Abel. They had drastically different endings but truly started on the same path. They, more than anyone in history, had a very similar path that they could have taken. Society was not truly there to ward off positive investment. There only direction was their parents and God. They both should have ended up in very happy days by the end of their lives. But as we all know they did not. By the grasp of sin, Cain killed Abel. By the grasp of sin, Cain was lost.
"but for Cain and for his offering He had no regard. So Cain became very angry and his countenance fell."
Even though I have not talked to George in over 2 years and have not spent time with him in over 9 years, I still have a connection with him. Even though George and I would no longer be called friends by conventional means, I am still heartbroken over this news of him. Any type of emotion I have for him is by the work of the Holy Spirit, but I think the most troubling part of this situation for me is how close I was to being like him. The people I hung out with in middle school are the same people he is with today. While I never smoked pot, I was surrounded by it for years before I became Christian. I was just a few wrong steps from being in that hospital instead of him, but then Jesus.
And that is the most miraculous thing about this universe. Our universe is so big that we have no idea how far it goes, but easily the craziest thing about this place we call home is that we have a God who is willing to deal with the likes of men and wallow in our dirt of lives.
If you are a Christian: be thankful. Never get over being saved. Jesus brought you out of the pits of sin and dramatically reworked your life into redemption of the highest regards and some days you do not even think about it. Some days, if a bystander looked at your life, they would question your knowledge of the existence of God. Never take Jesus’ sacrifice for granted and truly reflect His glory as you are called to do.
If you are not a Christian: please consider. This is not an alter call. This is not me asking for a tithe. This is not a presentation. This is a friend of yours who loves you and is telling you with all of his might that there is a God calling out to you and He can change your life. You are imperfect and the only correction for that is a perfect Savior to be in your place. That Savior is Jesus and he died on the cross 2000 years ago. The God who breathed stars at Creation came down to the Earth and sacrificed Himself for you. A prayer does not save, but instead faith by the grace of Jesus Christ. But it does not stop there. Salvation is not a onetime issue but instead a life time pattern. If you truly feel a pull in your life, do not allow that to pass. Grab on to the call of Jesus.