The most significant thing that I've struggled with throughout my Christian walk is the truth that I don't deserve to be called a son of God. In thinking of my sin and repenting of my sin, I've come to realize how loving the God I serve really is. I mean seriously think about this.
Each and every day, whether we like to admit it or not, we sin. It all begins with a thought, and when that thought becomes tangible, sin takes place. We separate ourselves from a Holy and Righteous God. Because of our own selfish desires, we think we should be able to do whatever we want, say whatever we want, feel whatever we want, without consequences.
What rebellious creatures we truly are. We feel such a grand sense of entitlement because we are the "most advanced beings" on this planet. People say "There is no God" and "God is dead" because they don't want to own up to the truth that their sin is real. They know what they do is wrong because man was made with an innate sense of morality as a result of him being made in the image and likeness of God. They reject God's existence because in the very deepest recesses of their heart they know there is a God who will judge the righteousness of man according to His standard of holiness. They are afraid of His judgment and in an attempt to trick their minds into thinking He doesn't exist, they dispel all evidence of His presence. His standard of holiness is not attainable by any person that has ever walked this earth. We all need to understand that because of our sinfulness, we deserve death. The wages of our sin is death (Romans 6:23) and Christ signed the check.
Christ took our sins upon Himself. He took the weight of our brokenness, our lies, our lusts, our anger, our shame, our envy, our weaknesses. All on His shoulders. What a loving Savior He is.
I think the reason I write about this subject so much is because I don't understand my God. I don't understand why God in His perfection, would send His Son for me, the perfect embodiment of imperfection. What could He possibly gain from my life? Why would He do this for me?
God does not need me. He does not need you. He does not need anyone. In His completeness and omnipotence, there is nothing that He needs. But the thing about my God, is that He wants me. He wants you. He wants everyone. A Holy and Righteous God loves mankind because we were His greatest creation. He set us apart that we may glorify Him and live life to His glory. It is what we were made for.
As for the second question, I do not have an answer. I do not know why Christ would humble Himself by coming to the earth. I do not know why He would take the devastation and humiliation of the cross for my sake. The only explanation I can provide is that He loved me with a love I will never truly understand. Even when I am in a sacrificial love-relationship like marriage. I will never be able to love my wife like Jesus did and she will never be able to love me like He did. It is because sin has deformed us. But in Christ we can be made new. We can be made clean. Sin no longer guides us.
When we confess that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that He was raised from the grave (Romans 10:9) we are given the opportunity to live as His sons and daughters. We are given a second chance at life. So many people will continue to squander this life. They will wait to surrender and it will be too late.
But that is the beauty of my God! He gives anyone and everyone the opportunity to be adopted into His family, to be made an heir to His great Kingdom. The book of Romans speaks extensively on many different topics but the one I've noticed most is when Paul talks of how Christ has made a way for us so that none of us will taste eternal death. Through a relationship with Christ you can live! And He is quick to provide you with salvation, if only you surrender your life to Him. Christ poses this questions in Matthew 16:12:
"For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul?"
We are working against the wind when we try to live this life for ourselves. When it really comes down to it, this life has no purpose apart from Christ. It may be a bleak thought that life is meaningless, but it is the conclusion that nearly all the Greek philosophers came to. We tend to view those men as pretty intelligent, so why do we reject this point in their philosophies? Why do we try to find purpose in this life apart from God?
If you are looking for life, odds are you have already walked by it. The answer to life and purpose cannot be found in anything but God. The way to Him is through His Son Jesus. How long will you continue to walk past Him?